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The Aftermath of the CLEANSE

It is time to get REAL friends and I am not holding back regarding my feelings about the cleanse that I completed over a week and a half ago...I needed time to recover. I needed time to think about how I was going to express my feelings and concerns. I needed time to just put it all together and make sure I was giving you the best version of me. When I first wrote about the cleanse and "Slowing Down and Practicing Self-Care" I felt confident, positive, and ready, but things kind of turned quickly, and it wasn't pretty. To be honest...the last half of the cleanse was horrible. I could have quit, but I am not one to give up. I sucked it up and pushed through. 

The Aftermath of the CLEANSE

The PROS...  (there are not many)

  • It forced me to slow down physically. I was only practicing yoga and walking with Lucy. I even took a Restorative Yoga class, which shockingly I have never done and it felt AMAZING! Grateful for the yoga community at Dharma Yoga Nantucket and the comforting and peaceful practices I had that week. 
  • I kept very very hydrated!
  • I was reminded how much I LOVE food and need it to do the things that I LOVE!
  • I learned a lot about myself...the good and the bad. 

The CONS...

  • I felt depleted and exhausted...By the end of the week I was cranky, tired, and felt like I was moving in slow motion. Everything felt like a burden to tackle and when I couldn't practice yoga one morning, I was officially over it. I love to be active and move my body and I was done feeling like this. I wanted my energy back. I wanted to feel strong!
  • I started to have anxiety...The last couple of nights were restless and I was not sleeping, because of the lack of food. I would wake up in the middle of the night and feel panicked. My heart would be racing, I would toss and turn, and my mind was going a mile per minute. 
  • I started to get WAY too thin FAST...The last day of the cleanse, I got out of the shower and when I looked in the mirror I was saddened. I looked frail and weak. I had lost weight and I was too thin. I had not really noticed it all during the week because I was always so bundled up with sweatshirts and yoga pants, because I was cold, but also because the weather was miserable. I noticed when I looked in the mirror that morning I was not smiling. I did not have that healthy, strong, beautiful glow. I was just BLAH!
  • It brought up some old "food demons"...When you are eating the same meal 3 times a day for a whole week, eventually you start thinking about food and I was thinking about it a lot. And I was starting to panic about how I was going to go back to eating "normal". The cleanse tells you to ease back into eating, so that you do not shock your system. I was overthinking if I could have carbs right away...when could I have coffee...wine...ARGH it was too much thinking being wasted on FOOD and EATING! Food is fun and I love it, but when you have had "food demons" in the past you start making up rules again as to what you can and cannot eat and that is NOT healthy. 
  • I missed not being able to be social and to go out with friends...It is hard to socialize when you have no energy and you are eating the same meal every day. I was itching to go out and eat good food with my friends and enjoy a delicious glass of wine. 
The Aftermath of the CLEANSE

I am beyond happy that this cleanse is OVER! I did not like the way I felt at the end and even a few days after. I did not like the way I looked and how I was obsessing over food. I do not like how it actually left me angry. So as the above quote asks, I can honestly say I do not think that this cleanse served me. I live a very healthy and active life and making the choice to do this cleanse was not necessary. 

Yes, this aftermath is not a positive one, but you live and learn through experience and I learned. I learned that I will probably not be doing this again. I learned that I love my coffee and my nut butter and I do not like being told what I can and cannot eat. I learned that I like my energy that allows me to move my body and be successful at my job. 

The Aftermath of the CLEANSE

We are all different and we all have different needs and goals in our lives. I know that my friends will be doing this again in the Fall, but I will be sitting that one out. And I am okay with that, because what serves them is totally different as to what serves me...And that is what makes the world go round...I think I just pulled a "Corny Cotter" line...

"Forgive yourself if you've done something wrong.

Forgive yourself even if you haven't done something wrong.

Then see how good forgiveness feels. Forgive yourself and be free" - Melody Beattie

Slowing Down and Practicing Self-Care

I am doing a lot of things this week, that I NEVER thought I would or could do! With the transition into Spring, I have noticed that my body was physically exhausted. I felt sore after almost every workout; dreading my workouts; tired all the time. My mind and thoughts could not slow down. My belly was feeling bloated...I was too focused on the food, but at the same time not even really enjoying it. I was not even looking forward to my cup of coffee or my heaping spoonful of nut butter...WHAT??? I had hit a wall, but also had come to a BIG realization. I needed to SLOW DOWN! The infamous Lindsay Cotter has been telling me this for months, but just like everything else in life, sometimes we need to realize that ourselves. 

Slowing Down and Practicing Self-Care

In the past, I would have just pushed through these issues, but I am older, wiser, and more in tuned with my body and listening to what it needs. I also truly believe that things happen for a reason. I started texting my Life Coach that I needed to rest. I needed to detox. I was craving a break and wanted something to make me feel better...refreshed...energized...healthier and stronger. She told me to listen to her latest podcast on "Gratitude and Manifestation". After those 60 minutes, I knew what I needed to do. I needed to SLOW DOWN...To detox emotionally, physically, mentally...To get rid of the drama...To notice old patterns and habits that do not serve me...To acknowledge that when pressure shows up it is a gift! 

So when my good friend had mentioned that she and her husband were going to start their Spring Cleanse this week, I was intrigued. Very intrigued...So intrigued that I decided I was in! I cannot believe I agreed to do this because for years I have always said I will never to a cleanse...blah...blah...blah. Never say never...

This blog post is not about what the cleanse entails, it is about why I chose to do this...How I FELT during the cleanse and how I FELT after a week of fully detoxifying. If you want to learn more about the one I followed, you can go here.

I am not going to lie...It is hard! 

  • No coffee in the morning (I was drinking 2-3 cups) The first day I had headaches...Ouch! But each day gets better and easier and I have noticed that I have great energy when I awake!
  • I am tired (especially in the early evening) and the grey, cold, and rainy days are not helping the situation at ALL! The waves of tiredness come and go, but I am okay with that, because I am resting and healing.
  • Spoonfuls of ghee every morning...interesting, but I understand why! Thank you, Farm To Gold for supplying me with yours. 
  • My body has been forced to slow down and it feels so good. My physical activity only involves gentle yoga at Dharma Yoga Nantucket and easy walks with Lucy. It has been relaxing to not worry about what form of torture I was going to endure at the gym. Yes, that was how I was viewing my workouts. So this feels SO GOOD!
  • The food I eat is BORING, but I know it is serving a purpose. Thank goodness for all the Cinnamon, Turmeric, and Cumin from Simply Organic Foods!  BUT, I can already feel a change. I am not thinking about food like I used to. My cravings and taste buds are changing. I am eating to eat because it is fuel. It is simple. It is necessary. I can feel the changes in my gut, and it is good!
  • I am focusing on other things besides my workouts and food! I am taking better care of me. Resting, nourishing, listening, and yes slowing down! 
  • By letting my body rest, it is under less stress. I am not waking at 5:30 AM...On Wednesday I slept until 7:15 AM and it felt AWESOME! 

I am glad that I am not doing this alone, that I have my friends support to bitch and moan when necessary and to eat our boring meals together. But in all honesty, this cleanse is doing what it is supposed to do and it is WHY I chose to do it. Yes, I have my moments of doubt and wonder why the hell I agreed to this...But everything serves a purpose and I know that this one is serving ME!

Slowing Down And Practicing Self Care

I am excited to share with you how I felt after this is done...Whether it was truly worth it...What were the negative and positives. I wanted to put together other posts this week, but I just did not have the energy to write about food and working out. So this is what has been going on this week and only a few more days left. It is going to be an interesting journey! XOXO

How are you practicing self-care this week?

Have you ever done a cleanse?

The Week In Review...

Oh heck yeah, we are in Mercury Retrograde and things are about to crazy! Whether you believe in it or not, it is a very interesting thing that happens 3 times a year, lasts about 3 weeks, and it can definitely cause things to be a little kookie! You can read more about it here. This Mercury Retrograde for me personally is to focus on detoxifying...And this includes emotionally, physically, and mentally and I am ready to do ALL of that. I am going to get rid of drama...And figure out what areas of my life need a cleanse. I find all of this fascinating and the next couple of weeks could get interesting, so stay tuned. In the meantime...this is what happened THIS past week!

Workout Update: 

  • Make sure to check out my latest Core Power post HERE! I absolutely LOVE the stability ball. It is affordable...You can use it anywhere...It can improve your core, balance, posture, and strength...And you can seriously get a great workout, by using this handy-dandy piece of equipment. 
  • Personally, I am just flat out bored with my workouts. My mind and body are tired and they are tired of being in the gym...BLECH! I have hit a plateau, so it is time for a change. What that change is, I am not sure, but I know my body will tell me. I need to feel motivated and excited to workout again, so guess what's happening next week...REST! It is time for some self-care...yoga...long walks outside with Lucy.
  • I started my "self-care" regimen on the start of Mercury Retrograde at Dharm Yoga Nantucket. This is my studio and my second home to practice, nourish, stretch, and love my body. The studio is above Bartlett's Farm and has such a calming energy and gorgeous views. Very grateful that I can practice here. 

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What I Have Been Craving:

I have been devouring lots of berries, apples, avocados, Perfect Bar's, and the consumption of my peanut butter is through the roof. (I finish those raspberry and blackberry cartons in a sitting). I also was all about cleaning out the fridge this week, so dinners were thrown into a bowl with lots of hot sauce. Simple, easy, and nutritious...I was not in the mood to make elaborate eats. 

Quinoa Veggie Bowl

Quinoa Veggie Bowl

Savory Coach's Oats with Salmon and Veggies

Savory Coach's Oats with Salmon and Veggies

If you follow me on Instagram, you might have seen me share photos of my favorite #snackATTACK bar called Perfect Bar! These bars are not only DELISH, healthy, nourishing, and the perfect on the go snack, but I have really enjoyed working with the company, and always appreciate them fueling my lifestyle! 

Some AWESOME facts about these bars:

  • NON-GMO;
  • Contains complex carbohydrates with nature's purest energy;
  • FAT and it is not the bad kind...It is the good fat that your body uses for cell repair and recovery;
  • 20+ Organic Super Foods!!!
  • Always gluten-free!

I am having a GIVEAWAY on my Instagram account starting Friday morning and it will go through the weekend, for your chance to win a box of all seven flavors of Perfect Bar! My favorites are of course Peanut Butter and Almond Coconut! So head on over and ENTER! 

Have a beautiful weekend friends and I will see you next week! XOXO

What food are you currently craving?

What flavor of Perfect Bar do you LOVE?