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REAL...RAW...THIS IS ME

REAL RAW...This is ME

I want to be 100% real with y’all...Ever since I got back from the yoga retreat in Tulum, Mexico, I just have not been myself. The past month was sticky and challenging and I felt like the universe was testing me on ALL levels. I felt exhausted, sad, and uninspired. I felt like I was just going through the motions day in and day out. I wasn’t present for myself, for Shannon, and even Lucy. My love tank was empty and I needed to refill it. As I was scrolling through my Instagram account last Tuesday evening, before dinner, I made the decision that it was time to do some DIGITAL DETOX. The posting, the scrolling, liking, and trying to be on 100% was not serving me anymore and it all seemed FORCED. It was also taking up a LOT of my time. So...it was time for a quick break and to press the restart button and take some time for me, so I could find my purpose and inspiration. Owning up to your own shit is hard. Sharing this with all of you is freaking hard, but I am an open book and my journey and my ups and downs are all part of the process. Plus, as soon as you write it and say it, it just becomes that more REAL.

Recently my posts on social media have been emotional and honest and I also realized that while I was posting these photos and quotes, that my messages were raising some eyebrows. As I started to look deeper into them, I started to wonder “what the hell is going on?” I was being real and raw and I and started asking myself “Am I happy right now?” That was also a sign that I needed to remove myself from those spaces. I don’t need to be Positive Patty 24/7, because that’s definitely not real, but I also want to make sure that I am happy and inspiring, because that is truly ME and what these spaces are supposed to be about.

It was time to practice SELF-LOVE. Lately, I haven’t been in love with myself. I haven’t felt secure in my own skin. It is so hard to say these things out loud, but it happens. I was aware that something needed to change. I wanted to feel that LOVE for myself. How did I handle this?

  • I disconnected from the Instagram…As much as I love this platform, it is frustrating AF sometimes and I let it get the best of me. Why am I not getting enough likes or followers? What am I doing wrong? I started the comparing game and that obviously gets you nowhere FAST. So since last Tuesday night, I stopped scrolling, liking, posting, and engaging. Immediately I felt a sense of relief. Social Media is my job, so I put a lot of pressure on myself to be successful at what I do. Moving forward though, I’m going to stop putting the pressure on myself and just do ME. I am going to work on doing what works for me. Post when I want to post. Engage when I want to engage. To just let it be what it is supposed to be.

  • I treated myself to things that I knew would make me happy…Self-Care friends...I am all about that self-care, because it freaking works! A must needed hair appointment. It’s amazing what covering up those dark roots can do for your self-esteem. Some retail therapy. A manicure and pedicure, because isn’t it amazing how bright and pretty nails and toes are an instant ego boost. And of course, there is always yoga. I left so much sweat and emotion on my mat this past week and I left it ALL there.

  • I leaned on loved ones…and I leaned HARD! A big ass high-five to all my friends near and far, who let me vent and text and talk and just were there for me. In the past, I used to keep all this shit in, but not anymore. Life is too short to keep all that bad stuff in. Don’t be afraid to express yourself...EVER! Your friends and family are there for you and they are there to listen, to guide, to support, and most importantly LOVE YOU!

  • I got out of my own damn way and did the WORK...I woke up last week and literally felt ENERGIZED, INSPIRED, and DETERMINED, and I knew that I WAS BACK! I knew that I had to get out of my own damn way. I had a choice. I made the choice to be the best version of me. It is going to take some time. It is going to take work. It is going to take a lot of self-love, but it is OKAY. I’m OKAY. I will be OKAY. I am so grateful for this life. And I am ready to do this and do what works for me and to kick some freaking ASS!

Life is a journey. And this is my journey. I have always said from the beginning with mine here in Charleston that I would be real through the pretty and messy times. It’s sometimes hard to put this all out there, but I love that I can and just be ME. You can like it or hate it, but that is your choice. This is ME just being ME. What happens next is going to be awesome and I can promise you that!

THE COMEBACK KID

“Open to life’s abundance. Open to all its possibilities. The more open you become, the more creative you’ll be - in work, in play, in love, in life. The more creative you are, the more possibilities you’ll see” - Melody Beattie

The Comeback Kid

I’m back y’all and back with a different attitude, goal, and perspective on what will be happening with ME, this space, this brand. I took another major break because it was desperately needed. Unlike my other break that was planned, before I launched Katie Uhran, this break was not planned. I came back from one of our trips to Wisconsin and said fuck it, I can’t do this right now. I was tired of posting. I was tired of writing. I was tired of scrolling, comparing, and keeping up with it ALL. I was DONE. I was burnt out and it was affecting my sleep, life, and relationships. I realized that I just couldn’t do it ALL.

I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to be “THAT” influencer. I thought I was going to make it BIG. I had such high expectations of being that fitness influencer with all those followers and brands banging on my door to represent them. Guess what...I didn’t become “THAT” influencer...Guess what...I’m so okay with that. Instead, I now represent a handful of brands and I get to make them shine and I LOVE it.

I was putting a lot of pressure on myself. I was frustrated as to why it wasn’t happening, what was I doing wrong, why wasn’t I getting tons of likes. Do you know how much of an energy vampire that is? I was flipping exhausted. I felt uninspired and almost angry towards my personal brand and what I was doing. ALL signs that it was time to stop and I did just that and another guess what...it felt FREAKING AMAZING!!!

I am always changing and I have come to accept that. I have learned that my journey is going to have ups and downs. I am going to be challenged. And this time has done that. I honestly wondered if I would ever come back. I wondered if I would want to write, create, and inspire again. And then it happened...The cloud lifted and that feeling and passion to come back appeared and I am just going to go with it and see where it takes me.

The Comeback Kid

What exactly is next in this space? I am not really sure. I realize that moving forward that it is definitely going to be different. I am not going to put that pressure on myself AGAIN. I can guarantee you that there will be posts about food, fitness, and SHANNON (because everyone wants to know about him). My goal is just to be ME. My goal is to continue to inspire y’all to eat all the NUTTZO, to try my kookie workouts, and to continue to follow me on this journey.

NuttZo for LIFE

Over the next few weeks, we have a lot going on. We are traveling a ton to football games, to my little sister’s wedding in Nantucket, to beautiful islands...It’s A LOT...It’s going to be fun...And I am ready for the new season, the new outlook, and whatever lies ahead. So here we go...AGAIN...the comeback kid is back for whatever round I am on. xoxo

DISCONNECTING WAS HARDER THAN I THOUGHT

OH HEYYYYY!!! I disappeared for a little bit, because well LIFE has been happening. Work has been insanely busy...We’ve been doing a lot of house stuff...I finally left the state of South Carolina...And my Mom actually came into town for a quick weekend. Plus it is SUMMER, so we should be busy and be outside and soaking up that sunshine and going on adventures. And honestly, blogging, just hasn’t been a top priority for me lately. If I am not feeling inspired or have anything to write in this space, I just don’t do it. No need for bull shit or to force something that isn’t REAL. I definitely get frustrated, when I don’t stick to my blogging schedule and I promise to write about ALL these topics, but then LIFE HAPPENS and I just can’t do it. There are other things that have to come first.

I don’t know why I have to explain myself, but I do, because I appreciate all of YOU who support me and read my posts, whenever the hell I am able to post. So now that I am done blabbing and I have had my “Thinking Out Loud” moment, why don’t we keep chatting...Okay? Great...Let’s do this…

A couple of weeks ago, we went to Wisconsin for a 4-day trip and we are heading back again on Friday. I had not been on a plane or a vacation in MONTHS. I was so so so READY for this. I felt like I was living Groundhog Day here in Charleston. It was the same thing every single flipping day. I was stuck in my routine. I was antsy. I was burnt out with work and training. It was time to escape. This was also the first trip that I was going on where I was going to have limited phone and Internet service...My first reaction was WTF...My second reaction was HALLELUJAH!!!

WISCONSIN LAKE LIFE

The weekend was AMAZING! We went to lots of parties. We ate all the food. We drank all the booze. We just lived in the moment and it was relaxing, refreshing, fun, and yes I was pretty exhausted by the end. I only posted a few times to Instagram stories and then by the last two days, I just stopped. I was able to text here and there, but mainly went off the grid. And the only time I opened my laptop was early Monday morning when we were leaving Wisconsin. I also “thought” I was going to take a full 4 days off from working out, but I didn’t. I did two 6 mile runs and one long walk. Why didn’t I take a break? I don’t know...I love to move my body...I am a better person when I sweat...And when I travel, I like to explore. Plus, the weather was amazing and when you are able to run on country roads surrounded by corn fields, with no music and no distractions...it was therapeutic. And after eating and drinking the food and booze, it felt good to sweat it out.

WISONCSIN LAKE LIFE

But let’s talk about DISCONNECTING for a hot minute...It was a lot harder than I thought! I love what I do and I do work 7 days a week. When I am home, on the weekends, I don’t work a full day, but I will typically work 2 - 3 hours total in the mornings and evenings, or whenever I get the urge to create and schedule posts. I like to be organized and have a clean inbox and schedule things, because, in the social media world, organization is KEY. At first, when I had no service I rejoiced...but by the end of the trip when I opened all my emails...FULL PANIC. The week after we got back I was playing catch up the whole entire week. I didn’t like that feeling.

As I prepare for another weekend away, I have already tried coming up with a plan of attack, so I don’t feel like I am drowning when I come back home on Tuesday. The goal is to go off the grid on Friday and Saturday and then reconnect on Sunday and Monday. I can spend hopefully at least two hours here and there to respond to emails; place orders; and take care of any fire drills. We’ll see if this actually happens, but for now, I have a plan. I know I sound like a control freak, but this is my business. 

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Do I wish I could fully go off the grid? HELL YEAH! But it just isn't in my nature...I like to work...I love my clients...My clients help me pay the bills. Since I control my schedule, I know that I have to set limits on how much I work, because just like everything else in life, it will lead to burn out and affect your life and lifestyle and relationships. I am also learning to let go of my control tendencies...Now that is definitely a work in progress...LOL!

Am I looking forward to going off the grid again? HELL YEAH! These quick weekend summer giveaways are so good for me, my body, my mind, and most importantly my relationship with Shannon. We both work so hard day in and day out and disconnecting is the best way for me to be present with him and us with each other. It is sad that our lives revolve around our phones and social media, but it is what is. Social Media is a business and it is my livelihood, so I just have to learn what works best for me, my life, my relationships, so that I can strive in BOTH. I am constantly learning, growing, and living and grateful for every moment of it. 

See y'all next week! 

Are you able to disconnect on a regular basis?

What's your longest "off the grid" moment?

WHAT HAPPENED WHEN I DISCONNECTED

When I made the decision to get my shit together and take this leap of faith to rebrand myself, I knew that I had to step away from social media! To be 100% honest with y’all, this really involved me stepping away from Instagram, for almost TWO months. This would involve NO liking...NO commenting...NO posting...NO checking. I continued to tweet, pin, and share posts on Facebook, but as the time got closer to the launching of the NEW site, I went 100% dark and it was just what I needed. Like everyone else who takes this time away from social media, it is definitely worth it and recommended.

WHAT HAPPENED WHEN I DISCONNECTED

As I begin to move into this next chapter of my career, I knew that I really wanted to put all of my attention to my Instagram feed and to my writing. So in order to do that, I needed to take a BIG step away from my account. The timing was perfect as I was feeling BLEH...I was running out of photographs that made me 100% happy...I was tired of scrolling, engaging, and I felt like I had hit a big ass plateau. My creative juices were depleted. I needed a break.

My initial thoughts when I talked to Shelby about closing it down for those two months made me nervous. What was I going to do instead of creating posts? How many people were going to unfollow me? Would this hurt my brand? Looking at the bigger picture, these were some petty thoughts, because there is another LIFE outside of social media. And as cheesy as it sounds, I needed to focus more of my attention on my real life issues.

The day I posted the announcement that I was taking some time away, I felt relieved. I felt excited. It was just time and I enjoyed every second. Did I lose a ton of followers? HECK YEAH! Did I care about losing those followers? HELL NO! Okay...maybe I cared a little bit the first few days, but then I forgot about it. Like I said, there were other things that I need to work on, so having those extra hours were a blessing in disguise. Yes, there were moments, when I wanted to check, engage, like, and browse around, but I didn’t.

The time away allowed me to fully give Shelby and myself the attention that I needed to create the new brand. I was able to write, write, and do more writing. I had time to work on myself and my relationships. I made myself tackle those tasks that I had been ignoring forever. And I was able to come up with my plan for the new Instagram account, which was just what I needed.

With life, fitness, work, and social media, we all need a BREAK! Whether it is a big one or a little one, taking the time away is good for the soul.

WAHT HAPPENED WHEN I DISCONNECTED

“To find peace, you have to be willing to lose your connection with the people, places, and things that create all the noise” - Unknown

Do you take time away from social media?