A Letter To My 43 Year Old Self
Happy Birthday you badass MERMAID!
Let the birthday celebrations truly begin, because you deserve it and have earned it!
What a fucking year it has been, but I see YOU, I see what you have done these twelve months with your body, your mind, and your heart. I see how you have accomplished so much more than what you give yourself credit for. I see the tears of pain and laughter that you experienced. I see how hard you have worked to overcome health issues. I see it ALL and goddamn woman you are fucking STRONG! So strong that I wish you would give yourself some credit for!!!
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It has been ONE year since you opened up to the world about your eating disorder in this space! That took courage, strength, fearlessness, and look at what you have done in one year already!!! You put in some hard WORK and never gave up, even though I know that you wanted to. You gained ten pounds of strength physically and mentally. You are happier, more energized, and have truly started to LET GO of the control and learn to live your best life. I know you have had slip-ups, but you recognized them, you opened up about them, you leaned on your people, and that is the work and the work will reward you.
Be patient…Be bold…Be YOU and remember all those who you are inspiring on this health journey! This is just the beginning of something amazing!
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You had a mass the size of an apple removed from your thigh!!! That surgery, that experience was scary AF, and gosh darn woman, you made it through! I know that you were beyond stressed, you cried, you screamed, you had no control over the situation…BUT…Look at how you stepped up to the plate and did the work to prepare for the surgery. Look at how you healed after the surgery. You did the WORK…you nourished your body from the inside out…you gave yourself GRACE, love, and patience. In a weird way, this surgery was a blessing in disguise, because you learned so much about YOU!
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You honored that you needed to do emotional healing work to break old habits, to open yourself up to new dimensions of LIFE, and clear the toxicity that has been holding you back! You realized that over the past year you have been holding onto a lot of anger, fear, and stress, which was weighing you down and affecting your quality of life and your relationships. I know you were tired and feeling defeated, so admitting this to yourself and reaching out for help was HUGE!
Thank you Ashley for helping me take this first step into this healing journey! Beginning to work with Ashley has already allowed you to clear so much stagnant energy, repressed stress, and tensions in that beautiful energetic body of yours! You are nourishing your mind, body, and spirit to support your nervous system…to open new dimensions in your life…to embody and integrate the NEW energy upgrade, and create SPACE for all the things! You are thriving and it is apparent ini your smile, your body, and your aura. KEEP IT UP WOMAN!
As Dad ALWAYS told you…NEVER GIVE UP!
You aren’t meant to be small anymore…Step into your power, creativity, and passion for sharing and inspiring others to live their purpose as well as YOURS! You have a voice, a story, determination, grit, confidence, knowledge, and experiences that need to be shared and heard! Speak your truth, it is time!
And don’t be afraid to tap into your dreams, because this will help you tap into your creativity, which you know that you have! It will help with the creativity of your LIFE…creativity with your PROJECTS…creativity with your RELATIONSHIPS! Trust the powerful creative force of the universe and lean into it!
You are ready more than you know…
Spread your wings and dream BIG!
xoxo
